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*So I only recently found out what this word means.

I thought I knew it meant "thoughtful" or "caring" but according to books that tell you the meaning of words that are now the internet*, turns out it's closer to "diligent".

The correct meaning seems way more depressingly bureaucratic ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ .

This discovery was made on my journey through my new form of training (which I'll probably talk about some other time) - the mixed modal efforts have a higher discomfort level requiring more focus to ensure I don't not do it*. So aye: conscientiousness.

Here. Nobody likes an overdog, right?

Amaz🤮n sent me an email recently that my Prime subscription was going to renew in September. I took the opportunity to ensure it wouldn't.

I remember when I was under the impression Amaz🤮n was an upstart site to get books for less. It's has now become an exploitative atrocity and I feel miserable any time I use it. There are a number of reasons for this, some of which are perfectly articulated in Chokepoint Capitalism by Rebecca Giblin and Cory Doctorow.

There are other reasons too. Sending Bezos into the stratosphere to dick around pretending he's in space, my buying habits have changed, workers get treated worse than Terran SCVs from Starcraft. Dasharezone said it best:

Today is a day off for me.

A day off a few things. I try to make Thursday a non-training day and will usually try to get some gaming in, perhaps some online course learning, running some errands and whatnot. I have to post some bumf today for example.

A day off training means I can potter about in the morning rather than fly into action. This morning it looked like the following:

Wake up, grab phone, make coffee, sit on step outside.

On my morning yomp (see lore for today), I was thinking about sacrifice. My alarm went off at 05:00, but I knew today's duration was short, so let the alarm re-wake me at the cut-off of 06:00. To get a decent sleep, one has to avoid revenge hours by going to bed 'early' - in my case that's usually 21:30 at the latest. This is essential because I train before work and depending on the day that can sometimes be longer than two hours in the morning.

This also affords me the luxury of a second training session over lunch.

What am I giving up though? What things that I want to do are being cast aside for this two-training-sessions-in-a-day strategy? What would I rather be doing?

Nothing - and that's the point.

Behold, the inaugural dispatch from the edge of chaos, if you're reading this it means you have started at the beginning for something.

Not sure what.

For those that know me, it'll be familiar ground - discussion or thoughts that don't quite fit under any of the hats for which I have previously built websites to abandon.

Essentially, this a playground for half baked ideas in the form of "Here, read this and tell me what you think." The emphasis could be put on the "tell me what you think" part.